I can see i have readers from all kind of countries and i LOVE that .
I am grateful to you all that you want to click in and read my blog ,, it has not been so positive lately because of something very hard i have had to deal with .
But it mean the world to me that you check in =)
Please don`t be afraid to say Hi ore leave a comment ..
I truly appreciate your support !
Thank you =)
Love & Hugs
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Some pain never ends !
Sometimes it feels like i want to die ,, Because i miss you so much !
When i last my mom and dad i thought that was the worst ever that nothing can hurt that much .
It was a pain so beyond everything i ever felt . And i was so lost , i last everything safe and diden`t have anyone to turn too anymore .. I was alone Totally alone ..
I still miss my parents specially my mom i think of her almost everyday , and if she had been here with us she had been 70 this Sunday .. But Shes not ..
When you are young you don `t understand everything and sometimes you are hard to your parents only see all there mistakes and don`t see everything that is good what they actually did for you ..
But you see that much more clearly when you grow up , and you can also understand things better why they maybe did like they did in some moments ..
And when you have kids of your own you understand even better specially when they are teenagers it is not always so easy to be a mother of a teenager ..
Specially not one alone mother !
How ever ,, the pain and the sadness never dies , i think i really lost a peace of myself that never can be replaced ..
But , there is one more pain that is worse , , , and that is sometimes to much !!
It is so more then to much , after the latest " thing " that happen that i really cant take this anymore ..
I have to say goodbye to you , maybe not for ever , but for now , because you will kill me one day if i don`t ..
I can`t take this anymore , i have no strength left ,, and i have to take care of my self ..
You have people all around you that "helps" you and support you in the way they believe is right ..
So you will be Okey ,, the question is , will i ?
Well time will tell ,, This is the worst thing i ever done ,, but i have to !
And its not only you , i have to say goodbye to the ones that are around you too ..
I cant have any connection with you left ..
So ,, Im Sorry my love ,, but i have too ,, its the only way for me to survive this !
I did tell you , if you continue this little game of yours that this will happen one day , and now it has !
Its all over , now !
But i do have Beautiful Memories , and i will keep them in my heart for ever !
Maybe i see you one day but that will be one day far from now ..
I hope you be ok , and that you take good care of yourself ,, i will try do the same !
I Love you <3
When i last my mom and dad i thought that was the worst ever that nothing can hurt that much .
It was a pain so beyond everything i ever felt . And i was so lost , i last everything safe and diden`t have anyone to turn too anymore .. I was alone Totally alone ..
I still miss my parents specially my mom i think of her almost everyday , and if she had been here with us she had been 70 this Sunday .. But Shes not ..
When you are young you don `t understand everything and sometimes you are hard to your parents only see all there mistakes and don`t see everything that is good what they actually did for you ..
But you see that much more clearly when you grow up , and you can also understand things better why they maybe did like they did in some moments ..
And when you have kids of your own you understand even better specially when they are teenagers it is not always so easy to be a mother of a teenager ..
Specially not one alone mother !
How ever ,, the pain and the sadness never dies , i think i really lost a peace of myself that never can be replaced ..
But , there is one more pain that is worse , , , and that is sometimes to much !!
It is so more then to much , after the latest " thing " that happen that i really cant take this anymore ..
I have to say goodbye to you , maybe not for ever , but for now , because you will kill me one day if i don`t ..
I can`t take this anymore , i have no strength left ,, and i have to take care of my self ..
You have people all around you that "helps" you and support you in the way they believe is right ..
So you will be Okey ,, the question is , will i ?
Well time will tell ,, This is the worst thing i ever done ,, but i have to !
And its not only you , i have to say goodbye to the ones that are around you too ..
I cant have any connection with you left ..
So ,, Im Sorry my love ,, but i have too ,, its the only way for me to survive this !
I did tell you , if you continue this little game of yours that this will happen one day , and now it has !
Its all over , now !
But i do have Beautiful Memories , and i will keep them in my heart for ever !
Maybe i see you one day but that will be one day far from now ..
I hope you be ok , and that you take good care of yourself ,, i will try do the same !
I Love you <3
Friday, June 10, 2011
Hello Friends =)
How are you all ?
Do you have holiday planes ?
In Sweden its been Thunder storms from North to South and back again ,, but its not out on the Island not yet anyway , they said on News that we should have it by yesterday but i guess they were wrong again =)
But i do hope we get some of it , i like thunder ,, when you are in a house ..
But if you are out in a tent it is not so nice =) That happen me and my daughter a few years ago before i moved to this island we always were here in summer on holidays and we were living in a tent on the beautiful beach in a big camping place and then one night we had the worst thunder ever and it was so close TO close right over our heads ,, that was not so fun ,, we thought we should die that night !!
We left the tent and went to the Laundry house a small small little house for Laundry they had on the camping it was not much of a house but better then a tent anyway so we stayed there hold night close together with the lightning right outside the window ,, that was scary like a horror movie =)
Anyways ,, we diden`t die Thank God !! And now i don`t live in a tent so now it can be a little exiting with thunder and Lightnings it can be very beautiful but i don`t need it To Close =)
Well that was a little story from my life =)
Do you have holiday planes ?
In Sweden its been Thunder storms from North to South and back again ,, but its not out on the Island not yet anyway , they said on News that we should have it by yesterday but i guess they were wrong again =)
But i do hope we get some of it , i like thunder ,, when you are in a house ..
But if you are out in a tent it is not so nice =) That happen me and my daughter a few years ago before i moved to this island we always were here in summer on holidays and we were living in a tent on the beautiful beach in a big camping place and then one night we had the worst thunder ever and it was so close TO close right over our heads ,, that was not so fun ,, we thought we should die that night !!
We left the tent and went to the Laundry house a small small little house for Laundry they had on the camping it was not much of a house but better then a tent anyway so we stayed there hold night close together with the lightning right outside the window ,, that was scary like a horror movie =)
Anyways ,, we diden`t die Thank God !! And now i don`t live in a tent so now it can be a little exiting with thunder and Lightnings it can be very beautiful but i don`t need it To Close =)
Well that was a little story from my life =)
Take care ,, Love & Hugs <3
Sunday, June 5, 2011
Hi =)
How are you ?
I hope everything is good with you !
On "my" Island its summer now warm and beautiful !
I hope sun shines on you too ,, and that you feel blessed and happy =)
I hope everything is good with you !
On "my" Island its summer now warm and beautiful !
I hope sun shines on you too ,, and that you feel blessed and happy =)
Love to you all , and BIG HUGS ,, i have missed you !!
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